The Tease: 2008

12/2/08

Breakout

The pity on my sleeve
Is more than meets the eye
Breakdown to my knees
Taste the tears I cry

Cannot try to escape
Must learn how to fall
The prison I have made
Built with my own walls

Keep sheltered where I’m comfortable
And don’t deal with the pain
The struggle between head and heart
Nothing to lose and all to gain

     The breakout will never come until I accept the change
          The breakout will never come unless I try to change

               The breakout will never come until I accept the change
                    The breakout will never come unless I try to change

by Sean Kimmel

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11/4/08

Riddles of Selfish Love

How much brighter are your days when there is another to make the days brighter?

Why can’t you make someone possess the same feelings towards you as the feelings you possess towards them?

Is it possible to feel too deeply about another when you know that person is the one you want to deeply feel for?

When should you stop loving that person that doesn’t return the same love to you, even though all you say and all you do is in direct correlation to the love that does not want to return the same love back to you?

How hard do you fall in love for someone when there is that special someone worth falling in love for?

How much time is spent thinking about them when all you do is think about them with your time?

When gone is the hurting one gives you, is the hurting they gave truly gone?

by Sean Kimmel

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10/10/08

The Chance

Constantly watching you from afar
Just wanting to more of who you are
Don’t know what needs to be said
The outcome being what I dread
Got to move and take the risk
Heavy breathing, heart beats brisk
Can’t imagine what’s at stake
Think too much until the mind aches

Shards of glass break in the light of day
Crumbling the world around with nothing to say
The words were not want one wants to hear
Turn around, leave with shameless fear
Falling fast are the tears as they drop
Heart beats slower, almost to a stop
Mind sharply races as days go by
The image remains but the feeling died

by Sean Kimmel

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8/22/08

Gone with Another

Gone you are from my life
Alone is the way I now spend my time
I think about you every day and night
Just hoping to be the only one by your side
You made the choice and left me behind
Pain is what’s replaced the love inside

The girl that I love is gone with another
The woman I lost, I never even had at all
The girl that I want doesn’t feel the same
The woman I love, she now with another

Think about how good it could’ve been
Together we stand until the end
A touch from you tingles my skin
Day after day wanting it to begin
You see us not as lovers but as friends
Still being in your presence makes me spin

The girl that I love is gone with another
The woman I lost, I never even had at all
The girl that I want doesn’t feel the same
The woman I love, she now with another

Confused why you went back to him today
Hate to admit I kept my feelings at bay
So many things to you I never could say
Not like in the movies, it’s all cliché
Can’t believe the mind has strayed
The world darkens as the skies turn gray

The girl that I love is gone with another
The woman I lost, I never even had at all
The girl that I want won’t feel the same
The woman I love, she now with another

by Sean Kimmel

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7/7/08

Desolate Highway

Only darkness down the long road ahead
Driving for what feels like a string of days
Rain beats down on the window leaving blurry streaks
The only voice talking comes from the radio
No hope of sunlight breaking through the endless sky

Drowsy, must fight the nodding head
Eyelids heavy as cement blocks
State of mind is incoherent
Unpleasant images blast through
Need to pull off but enjoy the torture

Travelers passing by are few and far between
Swerving over the center line and back again
Can’t see what is surrounding me
Almost of gas, no place to stop
Lost on this highway and not sure where it ends

Out of nowhere the clouds lift
The pouring rain fades away
Is that a ray of sunshine on the road ahead?

by Sean Kimmel

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6/15/08

Blissful Rage

Blissful rage builds up inside
Inside my head as I try to hide
Hide my face so no one knows
Knows the things I dare not show
Show the threat behind my eyes
Eyes that stare as you walk on by
By the way you have no choice
Choice to be, let out the voice
Voice your screams when no one hears
Hears the words and mask the fear
Fear that pulsates in your heart
Heart that beats when you’re apart
Apart from the world around
Around the darkness that surrounds
Surrounds my spirit to my soul
Soul blackens now fills the role
Roll on by till it’s much too late
Late for you to change the fate
Fate which you will not be left
Left for dead without a breath
Breath of life is what I sniff out
Out of reasons, there is no doubt
Doubt that I deserve to live
Live with nothing else to give
Give my victims my blissful rage

by Sean Kimmel

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5/14/08

Slow Quickness of Time

Time passes slowly quick
               Another week you forget

Irrelevant days turning sharp
               Then a month crossed off the chart

Little things don’t make you think
                A year flies by in a wink

Youth is gone and don’t know how
                Middle age approaching now

Can’t remember the details of long ago
                Rapidly fading growing old

Wait the racing mind is perplexed
                On the fate that happens next

by Sean Kimmel

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4/21/08

Damaged

You will never fully understand
The void left in my heart
If I’d know this is how things turn out
It’d been stopped before the start

You actions I cannot comprehend
Was it all just a game?
Confusing thoughts running in my head
Now I won’t speak your name

Can’t control the darkening forecast
Ball of pain in my guts
You say one thing and act another
Left deep is the cut

Realize that I’m not at all like most
And now it’s thrown away
While you look for someone not there
I must go on day after day

by Sean Kimmel

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3/6/08

Heart Gets Trampled Over Time

All I could ask for is you at my side
Together making it all better in life
Can’t make a decision when on the line
Once I thought you were near but not quite
Don’t see that my love is not blind
And my heart get trampled over time

Nothing works when your feelings hide
Just can’t see eye to eye in this strife
Sad remains happiness don’t shine
Without you the future not so bright
My love is truly unique, one of a kind
And my heart gets trampled over time

The love I possess is rare, hard to find
Terrible the pain that cuts like a knife
Selfish but I want you to be only mine
Coming into view but still out of sight
Two bodies close lying intertwined
And my heart gets trampled over time

All the words that were said never lied
Won’t realize that my love is in rife
Tired of the massacred that it’s all fine
Get by each day hoping I’m alright
You’re the only one I want to find
And my heart gets trampled over time

Over and over I fall into the same trap
Dreams of you through the years as my wife
Only to two things I know that are true
The is first is without a doubt I love you
The second being you don’t care what I say
Wake up and go on not thinking each day
And my heart gets trampled over time

And my heart continues to get trampled over time

by Sean Kimmel

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2/18/08

Who Is There To Care

And who is there to care about me…
When I don’t care for myself

And who is there to care about me…
Love collecting dust on a shelf

And who is there to care about me…
Since I haven’t found someone yet

And who is there to care about me…
When loneliness is my companion again I bet

And who is there to care about me…
With days being long and hard

And who is there to care about me…
Insides get thick and scarred

And who is there to care about me…
Thinking about running away from it all

And who is there to care about me…
As it crashes upon me as I fall

And who is there to care about me…
When thoughts boil in my brain

And who is there to care about me…
To help me deal with the pain

And who is there to care about me…
As tears creep down my face

And who is there to care about me…
Don’t feel as if I have no place

And who is there to care about me…
After I lost a love that cant be found

And who is there to care about me…
When no one realizes I’m around

And who is there to care about me…
Because I’m lost with no clue what to do

And who is there to care about me…
Wish I only knew

by Sean Kimmel

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1/20/08

Another Day

Thought it was all behind me

Then I saw you again

Feelings came up the same

Situation is different now

Through the time that’s past

And neither of us is to blame

Be lying if I said my mind was clear

Still think of you too much

Because my feelings are the same

by Sean Kimmel

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1/2/08

Used?

Think back and dwell on the memories that are pleasant
Block out the pain and wrong she’s done
Tricking myself into holding on to the last strand
When you were never even in my grasp
Useless games, who has the stamina anymore
Or the mental state to endure the mind fucking
Just get over the bitch is what you are being told
But the people that speak don’t know my insides
Who are they to judge with their distant perspectives
Though you know it’s correct but the question remains
If you know she’s using you than are you really being used?

by Sean Kimmel

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