The Tease: poetry

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6/19/12

A False Fairy Tale

Once there was a special girl

Who I needed far more than she needed me.

Under a disguise of an unknowing

The dynamic morphed into a different shape.

Thump, thump, thump went the heart

Each moment flashing images

Or so I thought

Cant we go back
to the way things were
before I messed it up
with my pounding heart.

Was I only good when you needed someone to care and listen?

The silver lining in a world of misery.

The feeling between us was only story.

Rain falls from the sky

Washing away memories

As they float by.

I only wanted to hear you voice.

But no answer has a limited choice.

Was it love or just the feeling of being needed by another person?

I was always there
to hear you complain
     and make you feel at ease
       by taking away the pain
To give you suggestions
on how to deal.
    No matter what I thought
      the illusion wasn't real.

Did I imagine more than actually existed between us?

You need time figure yourself out

and what you need to achieve.

I came to terms with myself long ago

and know what I need

I thought it was you.

I wanted it to be us.

The boat got rocked.

The situation got tossed.

Is being numb better than mending a broken heart?

by Sean Kimmel

For more go to www.seankimmel.com

4/8/10

One Way

Tired of traveling along this one way street,

Unable to find the exit to the expressway.

The nativity of believing you wanted me to be your addiction.

A savior of hope in an otherwise darkened world.

Misread the passages and formed the wrong conclusions.

Happiness in your daily routine is my desire,

Just not at the expense of mine.

Double speak and vagueness causes emotional turmoil.

Melancholy reactions from a beating heart.
Love is impossible when it's a one sided affair.

Suggestions to ignore to the cause,
Remains improbable by chasing the phantom.
Yearning for what never flickered between.
Change in decisions could make the best of both worlds.
Wont push hard for fear of being too strong.

The lost and lonely walk in the same circles,

Yet aren't aware of each others existence.

Nothing appears as it seems to be.

Bury the sorrow deep so human eyes cant focus on the true nature.

Forsaken by the passion which keeps the fire burning.

by Sean Kimmel

For more go to http://www.seankimmel.com/

3/21/10

The Hitchhiker Named Misery

Blinded by the expectations of hope

for a better life.

The propaganda rapidly spreads
to distort the truth.

Old memories of better days lie as they fade

away into oblivion.

Void of any kind of meaningful speech

with to nothing to say

My callus heart pumps rapidly through

my chest before breaking.

Not living life with any purpose

but merely a passenger.

Watching the days of mediocrity

blend endlessly together.

Do I deserve misery as my only companion?

Sean Kimmel

For more go to www.seankimmel.com

11/29/09

The Grind

The world is blue
     No separation between night and day
          You wake up

Deal with the bullshit thrown your way
    Go to sleep
          Try to fool yourself with pleasant dreams

The sequence initiates
     Every motion is a repetitious device
          It’s second nature

Like a drone recycling material over the same splice
    Forging the blackness
          Searching for any sign of new optimism

          Looking for adventure to set me free
     Waiting for someone else to grab the reigns and lead
Instead of doing what's best for me

by Sean Kimmel

For more go to http://www.seankimmel.com/

10/14/09

Content

Jaded present moves towards future
Hollow on the inside
Complacency

Frontiers abound pass by unknown
Building layers of protection
Weakness

Experiences shuffled blindly aside
Locked inside your mind
Empty

by Sean Kimmel

For more go to http://www.seankimmel.com/

8/17/09

Junkie for a Heartache

Time and time and endless times again
Patterns fall, start over and begin
Thoughts churn inside my mind
     Of love
     Of lust
     Of fate
Deep down I’m just a hopeless romantic who seems to be romantically hopeless.

Close off the part so not to get hurt
No way to live, don’t want to revert
Burn the time holding thoughts at bay
     Of seclusion
     Of disappointment
     Of torment
Deep down I’m just a hopeless romantic who seems to be romantically hopeless.

by Sean Kimmel

For more go to http://www.seankimmel.com/

1/9/09

Rant from the Unknown

Conform to the masses

and

FUCK INDIVIDUALITY

Do what they say!
Do what they want!
Bow down to authority
Rules must be abided by

Laws for you protection

Not to be bent or broken

Or else ramification occurs

One nation under a false of god of hope.
Forcing the beliefs on a world who doesn’t ask for help.

Rid society of the moral laws and turn your back on the poor
Forget unsavory characters, the world is better off with out them

“Brought it on yourself” syndrome
Assholes mutter under breathe
People with power going to their heads
Inmates running the asylum
Top dog is the dollar bill
Norms strive for the fifteen minutes

Originality few and far between

MOVIES: ideas taken from predecessors

MUSIC: sounds all the same

BOOKS: stories rehashed

ART: style gone

Houses all look the same
Lawns all the same height
Vehicles all similar styles
One step away from total likeness
All of us dressing alike
THINKING ALIKE

Stop the trend of turning everyone into clones

Then I realize that I’m the problem too.

by Sean Kimmel

For more go to www.seankimmel.com

12/2/08

Breakout

The pity on my sleeve
Is more than meets the eye
Breakdown to my knees
Taste the tears I cry

Cannot try to escape
Must learn how to fall
The prison I have made
Built with my own walls

Keep sheltered where I’m comfortable
And don’t deal with the pain
The struggle between head and heart
Nothing to lose and all to gain

     The breakout will never come until I accept the change
          The breakout will never come unless I try to change

               The breakout will never come until I accept the change
                    The breakout will never come unless I try to change

by Sean Kimmel

For more go to www.seankimmel.com

11/4/08

Riddles of Selfish Love

How much brighter are your days when there is another to make the days brighter?

Why can’t you make someone possess the same feelings towards you as the feelings you possess towards them?

Is it possible to feel too deeply about another when you know that person is the one you want to deeply feel for?

When should you stop loving that person that doesn’t return the same love to you, even though all you say and all you do is in direct correlation to the love that does not want to return the same love back to you?

How hard do you fall in love for someone when there is that special someone worth falling in love for?

How much time is spent thinking about them when all you do is think about them with your time?

When gone is the hurting one gives you, is the hurting they gave truly gone?

by Sean Kimmel

For more go to www.seankimmel.com

10/10/08

The Chance

Constantly watching you from afar
Just wanting to more of who you are
Don’t know what needs to be said
The outcome being what I dread
Got to move and take the risk
Heavy breathing, heart beats brisk
Can’t imagine what’s at stake
Think too much until the mind aches

Shards of glass break in the light of day
Crumbling the world around with nothing to say
The words were not want one wants to hear
Turn around, leave with shameless fear
Falling fast are the tears as they drop
Heart beats slower, almost to a stop
Mind sharply races as days go by
The image remains but the feeling died

by Sean Kimmel

For more go to www.seankimmel.com

7/7/08

Desolate Highway

Only darkness down the long road ahead
Driving for what feels like a string of days
Rain beats down on the window leaving blurry streaks
The only voice talking comes from the radio
No hope of sunlight breaking through the endless sky

Drowsy, must fight the nodding head
Eyelids heavy as cement blocks
State of mind is incoherent
Unpleasant images blast through
Need to pull off but enjoy the torture

Travelers passing by are few and far between
Swerving over the center line and back again
Can’t see what is surrounding me
Almost of gas, no place to stop
Lost on this highway and not sure where it ends

Out of nowhere the clouds lift
The pouring rain fades away
Is that a ray of sunshine on the road ahead?

by Sean Kimmel

For more go to http://www.seankimmel.com/

6/15/08

Blissful Rage

Blissful rage builds up inside
Inside my head as I try to hide
Hide my face so no one knows
Knows the things I dare not show
Show the threat behind my eyes
Eyes that stare as you walk on by
By the way you have no choice
Choice to be, let out the voice
Voice your screams when no one hears
Hears the words and mask the fear
Fear that pulsates in your heart
Heart that beats when you’re apart
Apart from the world around
Around the darkness that surrounds
Surrounds my spirit to my soul
Soul blackens now fills the role
Roll on by till it’s much too late
Late for you to change the fate
Fate which you will not be left
Left for dead without a breath
Breath of life is what I sniff out
Out of reasons, there is no doubt
Doubt that I deserve to live
Live with nothing else to give
Give my victims my blissful rage

by Sean Kimmel

For more go to http://www.seankimmel.com/

5/14/08

Slow Quickness of Time

Time passes slowly quick
               Another week you forget

Irrelevant days turning sharp
               Then a month crossed off the chart

Little things don’t make you think
                A year flies by in a wink

Youth is gone and don’t know how
                Middle age approaching now

Can’t remember the details of long ago
                Rapidly fading growing old

Wait the racing mind is perplexed
                On the fate that happens next

by Sean Kimmel

For more go to http://www.seankimmel.com/

4/21/08

Damaged

You will never fully understand
The void left in my heart
If I’d know this is how things turn out
It’d been stopped before the start

You actions I cannot comprehend
Was it all just a game?
Confusing thoughts running in my head
Now I won’t speak your name

Can’t control the darkening forecast
Ball of pain in my guts
You say one thing and act another
Left deep is the cut

Realize that I’m not at all like most
And now it’s thrown away
While you look for someone not there
I must go on day after day

by Sean Kimmel

For more go to http://www.seankimmel.com/

3/6/08

Heart Gets Trampled Over Time

All I could ask for is you at my side
Together making it all better in life
Can’t make a decision when on the line
Once I thought you were near but not quite
Don’t see that my love is not blind
And my heart get trampled over time

Nothing works when your feelings hide
Just can’t see eye to eye in this strife
Sad remains happiness don’t shine
Without you the future not so bright
My love is truly unique, one of a kind
And my heart gets trampled over time

The love I possess is rare, hard to find
Terrible the pain that cuts like a knife
Selfish but I want you to be only mine
Coming into view but still out of sight
Two bodies close lying intertwined
And my heart gets trampled over time

All the words that were said never lied
Won’t realize that my love is in rife
Tired of the massacred that it’s all fine
Get by each day hoping I’m alright
You’re the only one I want to find
And my heart gets trampled over time

Over and over I fall into the same trap
Dreams of you through the years as my wife
Only to two things I know that are true
The is first is without a doubt I love you
The second being you don’t care what I say
Wake up and go on not thinking each day
And my heart gets trampled over time

And my heart continues to get trampled over time

by Sean Kimmel

For more go to http://www.seankimmel.com/

2/18/08

Who Is There To Care

And who is there to care about me…
When I don’t care for myself

And who is there to care about me…
Love collecting dust on a shelf

And who is there to care about me…
Since I haven’t found someone yet

And who is there to care about me…
When loneliness is my companion again I bet

And who is there to care about me…
With days being long and hard

And who is there to care about me…
Insides get thick and scarred

And who is there to care about me…
Thinking about running away from it all

And who is there to care about me…
As it crashes upon me as I fall

And who is there to care about me…
When thoughts boil in my brain

And who is there to care about me…
To help me deal with the pain

And who is there to care about me…
As tears creep down my face

And who is there to care about me…
Don’t feel as if I have no place

And who is there to care about me…
After I lost a love that cant be found

And who is there to care about me…
When no one realizes I’m around

And who is there to care about me…
Because I’m lost with no clue what to do

And who is there to care about me…
Wish I only knew

by Sean Kimmel

For more go to http://www.seankimmel.com/

1/20/08

Another Day

Thought it was all behind me

Then I saw you again

Feelings came up the same

Situation is different now

Through the time that’s past

And neither of us is to blame

Be lying if I said my mind was clear

Still think of you too much

Because my feelings are the same

by Sean Kimmel

For more go to http://www.seankimmel.com/

1/2/08

Used?

Think back and dwell on the memories that are pleasant
Block out the pain and wrong she’s done
Tricking myself into holding on to the last strand
When you were never even in my grasp
Useless games, who has the stamina anymore
Or the mental state to endure the mind fucking
Just get over the bitch is what you are being told
But the people that speak don’t know my insides
Who are they to judge with their distant perspectives
Though you know it’s correct but the question remains
If you know she’s using you than are you really being used?

by Sean Kimmel

For more go to http://www.seankimmel.com/

12/7/07

I Would Do

I’d walk the ends of the earth just to have a moment to share.
The sands of time could stop with us not going anywhere.
I’d say any of the words it takes because it’s what you deserve.
Knowing what is said to be the truth and not a curve.
I’d get deeply lost in your eyes and paralyzed by your touch.
Blinded by the feeling that I simply love you too much.
I’d worship your temple, the outside and knowledge with in.
Eagerly waiting for us an amazing lifetime to begin.
I’d do all of this for you, being pure down to the core.
Only one question remains, what are we waiting for?

by Sean Kimmel

For more go to http://www.seankimmel.com/

11/27/07

Masquerade of a Friend

Under a blanket of perceived protection
Turns out to be there to smother
Talk one way, act another out of the blue
The words that are spewed from you mouth are lies
In front of my face witnessing the interactions
Behind closed doors, imagination runs wild

Anger rises in my mind as fits of rage blast on
Want to pulverize until blood drops from my fists
Turn my back and refuse to acknowledge existence
Lies not spoken and actions not taken
But I can see with my eyes what occurs
Everyone suspects the worst is coming

Acting on past history that suppose to be in the books
Hope you both crash and burn in your plight
Shouldn’t be angry or surprised by the scene
Can’t put on a happy face and pretend anymore
Internally laughing at the results from a distance
Because you called yourself my friend

by Sean Kimmel

For more go to http://www.seankimmel.com/