And exit out of my mouth to become audible
So I can say the way that I feel about you.
I’ve tried on several occasions to get my thoughts out.
To speak, to talk, to let you know these emotions I own
But again, the courage escapes my body.
Doubt if even actually matters, to tell the truth.
I’m not the same in your mind as you are mine
Or at least that’s the impression received.
Yet the thoughts of how wonderful us together might be
Still keep running through my head constantly.
Painful is love when it’s only a one way street.
What would I say if given the chance or even a moment?
That, from the first moment my eyes noticed as you walk into a room
I was certain this stunning beauty was one of a kind.
Then somehow I was allowed to become a part of your world.
As we slowly blossomed to become friends
I came to the undeniable conclusion that this woman
Was not only this extraordinarily gorgeous creature
Also encompasses positive inner traits which pull me close.
Not to be forgotten are the not as pleasant items
All of which completes the incredible package of you.
I’m not for certain why no one can see these things as I.
And does it even matter if I say these things out loud with you listening?
What else is there that I should say?
That one day the sudden realization occurred to me
How amazing and special you truly are.
I find myself longing to be in your presence as much as possible.
Constant my mind cycles through with nothing but ideas of what might be.
When I wake in the morning the first thought is of you
As is the last thing before I fall sleep at night.
I image your smile and how it lights up a room,
Your touch as it brushes against my skin,
Echoes of your soft voice ringing in my ears,
The movement of your body across the room,
Or catching a glance from your eyes.
All of these burn in my memory and make the day that much better.
Does any of what I feel even matter to you?
Are there any other final words I need to get out to you?
Should it be known that I continually beat myself up on a daily basis
Because for some reason I am unable display
The unbelievable amount of feelings built up inside of me.
I consider myself a coward, an idiot for not ever speaking up.
To found out for certain if you hold an ounce
Of the same sensations towards me as I do towards you.
I think back on moments that are lost in time,
And there have been a quite a few instances
When things could have, or rather should have been said.
Yet I remained quiet, alone with my thoughts and mind-set about you.
I’m not else sure what to say, or that can be told
Besides this might be love I feel.
It just a one sided set of circumstances.
Though it doesn’t appear to me that it even matters.
Does it?
So I keep silence with my feelings about `you.
Hoping and wanting,
Waiting and miserable.
Copyright 2007
by Sean Kimmel
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