I Would Do

I’d walk the ends of the earth just to have a moment to share.
The sands of time could stop with us not going anywhere.
I’d say any of the words it takes because it’s what you deserve.
Knowing what is said to be the truth and not a curve.
I’d get deeply lost in your eyes and paralyzed by your touch.
Blinded by the feeling that I simply love you too much.
I’d worship your temple, the outside and knowledge with in.
Eagerly waiting for us an amazing lifetime to begin.
I’d do all of this for you, being pure down to the core.
Only one question remains, what are we waiting for?

Copyright 2007

by Sean Kimmel

 
 

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Masquerade of a Friend

Under a blanket of perceived protection
Turns out to be there to smother
Talk one way, act another out of the blue
The words that are spewed from you mouth are lies
In front of my face witnessing the interactions
Behind closed doors, imagination runs wild

Anger rises in my mind as fits of rage blast on
Want to pulverize until blood drops from my fists
Turn my back and refuse to acknowledge existence
Lies not spoken and actions not taken
But I can see with my eyes what occurs
Everyone suspects the worst is coming

Acting on past history that suppose to be in the books
Hope you both crash and burn in your plight
Shouldn’t be angry or surprised by the scene
Can’t put on a happy face and pretend anymore
Internally laughing at the results from a distance
Because you called yourself my friend

Copyright 2007

by Sean Kimmel

 

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Crossroads of Pain

Feels all wrong
The time is gone
The road ahead
Always dread
Hurt and pain
Make you insane
Mind’s not right
Keeps hope in sight
Feelings mixed
Ideas are nixed
Heart aches
While it breaks
The pieces shatter
Nothing matters
Forget the loss
At any cost
The beauty I see
Doesn’t look at me
Heart beats sad
Mind thinks mad
Still down and blue
Know what to do
Thoughts disprove
So on I move

Copyright 2007

by Sean Kimmel

 

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Lost

Woke up in the middle of the night.
With the TV on, can’t see right.
Thoughts of you running in my head.
Get up and open another beer.
Shake it off, trying to make it clear.
Still hear the words that you said.
Take a swig and sit back down.
Fall asleep till dreams come around.
Two us together in our bed.

So I wonder…
Why you left?
Where did you go?
Was it for the best?
Will I ever know?
Baby, what happened to you?

Something about you changed.
Messed up the life we arranged.
It broke my heart, I’m sure you knew.
Gone is the only girl that I ever loved.
Now I drown my sorrows, sail from above.
Sit around feeling drunk and blue.
I know again we shall never start.
But inside you still have my heart.
Tell me how to get over you.

So I wonder…
Why you left?
Where did you go?
Was it for the best?
Will I ever know?
Baby, what happened to you?

So I wonder…
Why you left?
Where did you go?
Was it for the best?
Will I ever know?
Baby, what happened to you?

So I wonder...
Baby, what happened to you?

Copyright 2007

by Sean Kimmel

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The Wish

Wishing someone loved me the way I would love them
With every ounce of energy and being
Day in and day out unconditonally, forever
To give each other in my mind, body, and soul

Wishing someone cared for me the way I would care for them
To do anything to protect and save them from harm
Not every wanting to hurt or make sad
To look deep in the eyes and just know without saying a word

Wishing someone thought of me the way I think about them
Smiling with a memory from the past
Replaying images over and over
Wondering of things to come, the great possibilities

Wishing someone felt about me the way I would about them
To move from top to bottom across the roadmap of your body
Pressing lips against one another
Gliding hands across your canvas to feel the texture
To smell your scent, to taste your sweetness

Wishing that someone was you.

Copyright 2007

by Sean Kimmel

 

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Body of Annoyance

I am my own worst enemy
Lack of doing, deficient in trying
Prevents possible happiness
Waiting for someone to fall
Upon me by shear coincidence
Recognizing it won’t ever occur
From the confines of my walls

The shell of my prison is slow to crack
Changes never appear to happen
The reflection sickens my insides
In my head excuses blur reality
The source of problems lies within control
Passing days see no results
Little alterations are not enough

Frustration and denial form a trifecta with sadness
Physical beauty is the first trait others notice
And it always escapes my grasp
Blend into the background with shame
When will it be my turn to shine?

Copyright 2007

by Sean Kimmel

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Walking Through the Motions

The world is blue
No separation between day and night
You wake up
And deal with the bullshit thrown your way
Go to sleep
Try to forget with the dance of dreams

               The cycle starts over
               Every activity is thoughtless
               It all becomes a pattern

Mourning movements
Looking for adventure to set me free
Instead of control
Waiting for someone to grip the reigns and lead
Needing to transform
Doubting this will ever occur

Copyright 2007

by Sean Kimmel

 

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Searching

You say that you’re sorry
But what are you sorry for
I revealed my love for you
You say it don’t matter any more

A similar two sharing the traveled road
But are paths just aren’t the same
You can’t make a person love you that won’t
And no one can be put to blame

So you keep looking for a love
That no where you can find
Open your eyes and realize
It been in front of you all the time

Copyright 2007

by Sean Kimmel

 

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Reality of a Fool

Used

Abused

Most of all confused

Victimized by the words implanted from the girl

Hate

Berate

Can’t keep it straight

Boiling over inside and steaming through the pores

And when you look back upon the situation

Both shall suffer from the decisions made

But you will realize the best thing you had

Was tossed aside and thrown away

Copyright 2007

by Sean Kimmel

 

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The Continuous Cycle

Living in a world of fantasy
Always thinking, wondering, imagining
But never acting on impulses from inside
Hiding back emotion with a stone face
Lies to the outside world about myself
Not as happy as it appears to the naked eye
Lonely, and sick of the thought
Want to crack the shell and let trueness show
Cant speak out of the true feelings possesed
Instead daydreaming of the way things might be
Observe in silence, not knowing how to speak
While everyday this vicious cycle continues on

Copyright 2007

by Sean Kimmel

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Hurting

Do you know the pain that boils throughout my insides?
The hurt all could have been avoided by actions not taken.
Simple issues between us, yet complicated in nature.
Memories shoot in my brain crushing my heart.
Dueling emotions pulsate throughout my mind.
Angry yet sadden by the situation that has unfolded.
Not wanting to look at you yet still want to be with you.
Hoping things will change in your mind yet knowing it won't.
Racking up countless possibilities yet not knowing the truth behind any.
I sit back and ask myself why things turned out the way.
Gone from my life is a person that I cared deeply for.
Don't think it will ever be fully repaired and like before.
And that's what hurts most of all.

Copyright 2007

by Sean Kimmel

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Empty

I believe that one gets accustomed to loneliness.

It merely starts out as a few days,
which silently turns into weeks.
Unknowingly followed by months,
thus occasionally turning into years.

Without a clue, the time slips by.

Periods of self doubt wondering
why am I not good enough,
and self loathing,
hating the person inside.


Utter worthlessness surrounds the mentally.
Can’t even look into a mirror because
the image staring back is one of shame.

Alone.

No one to available to share feelings, thoughts, or meaningless conversation.
A slow, downward spiral into the world of depression.
Not knowing when or if a snap out and return to normalcy will occur.

Just let the emptiness fade.

Copyright 2007

by Sean Kimmel

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Silence

Can’t figure out why the words won’t form a sentence
And exit out of my mouth to become audible
So I can say the way that I feel about you.
I’ve tried on several occasions to get my thoughts out.
To speak, to talk, to let you know these emotions I own
But again, the courage escapes my body.

Doubt if even actually matters, to tell the truth.
I’m not the same in your mind as you are mine
Or at least that’s the impression received.
Yet the thoughts of how wonderful us together might be
Still keep running through my head constantly.
Painful is love when it’s only a one way street.

What would I say if given the chance or even a moment?
That, from the first moment my eyes noticed as you walk into a room
I was certain this stunning beauty was one of a kind.
Then somehow I was allowed to become a part of your world.
As we slowly blossomed to become friends
I came to the undeniable conclusion that this woman
Was not only this extraordinarily gorgeous creature
Also encompasses positive inner traits which pull me close.
Not to be forgotten are the not as pleasant items
All of which completes the incredible package of you.
I’m not for certain why no one can see these things as I.
And does it even matter if I say these things out loud with you listening?

What else is there that I should say?
That one day the sudden realization occurred to me
How amazing and special you truly are.
I find myself longing to be in your presence as much as possible.
Constant my mind cycles through with nothing but ideas of what might be.
When I wake in the morning the first thought is of you
As is the last thing before I fall sleep at night.
I image your smile and how it lights up a room,
Your touch as it brushes against my skin,
Echoes of your soft voice ringing in my ears,
The movement of your body across the room,
Or catching a glance from your eyes.
All of these burn in my memory and make the day that much better.
Does any of what I feel even matter to you?

Are there any other final words I need to get out to you?
Should it be known that I continually beat myself up on a daily basis
Because for some reason I am unable display
The unbelievable amount of feelings built up inside of me.
I consider myself a coward, an idiot for not ever speaking up.
To found out for certain if you hold an ounce
Of the same sensations towards me as I do towards you.
I think back on moments that are lost in time,
And there have been a quite a few instances
When things could have, or rather should have been said.
Yet I remained quiet, alone with my thoughts and mind-set about you.
I’m not else sure what to say, or that can be told
Besides this might be love I feel.
It just a one sided set of circumstances.
Though it doesn’t appear to me that it even matters.
Does it?

So I keep silence with my feelings about `you.
Hoping and wanting,
Waiting and miserable.

Copyright 2007

by Sean Kimmel

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Unique Feelings

One of the best feelings in the world
is when you first realize
that you're falling for someone.

All you have to do is think about them.
A smile creeps out of the corners of your mouth.
Your hearbeat pumps and quickens.
Maybe you get butterflies in your stomach
or feel little dizzy in their presense.

The entire day is better,
if only for a few moments.
You look forward to the time spent together.

Call it falling in love,
or admiration towards another,
or even lust, desire, infacuation,
or a number of things.

But that feeling is unique.
Treasure it, forever.



On the opposite end of the spectrum
there lies one of the worst feelings one can obtain.
The realization that the person you've put on a pedastal
does not feel the same way about you.

A certain, callus demeanor falls upon you.
Not necessarily hate,
but a cold and empty feeling.
Your guts churn in disgust.
A pain hits your heart and spreads
through out your entire body.

You want to cry, and sometimes do.
This can be followed by self loathing,
definite loneliness, and denial.

This feeling is also unique.
But you must let it go
and search for the good.

Copyright 2007

by Sean Kimmel

 

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No Answers to the Questions

There are no answers to the questions running in my brain.

I’ve been wasting all my time
Throwing it all away
Nothing left to say
So I’ll go and walk that line



The tears have fallen from my face
A heart that needs to mend
Before it goes and ends
The thoughts of you in my head erased

There are no answers to the questions running in my brain.

Copyright 2007

by Sean Kimmel

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365

Every single day I could think of something great
to describe my feelings towards you.
A string of words or a phrase to highlight
all the items that make me love you.

Every single day I could listen to a song
that can put what I want to tell into a better perspective.
The words that mean what is in my heart
expressed better than the words from my mouth.

Every single day I could have you take in a story
either written or in visual form that is a reflection of how I feel.
Some character being more suave than I ever could try and be
that says and does the perfect things to sweep you off your feet

Every single day I could do those items and much more,
whatever it takes to make you smile and land safely in my arms.
But you don’t want to receive what I have to give.
So every single day I hold on to the one shred of hope,
this will be the day all my dreams are realized.

Copyright 2007

by Sean Kimmel

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Lone

Quiet.
Can’t get the courage to say
Thoughts pop up in my mind
Flashing through all the time
Hour by hour, day by day
Hoping to be one of a kind


Silence.
Talk to you about the way I feel
The words just won’t come out
Bravery upon myself, it’s a lie
But in my heart, I'm certain it's for real
Don’t know what that's all about


Alone.
Sitting with the emotional scar
Spun out of control as it grew
Another moment passes on by
Nothing said about my love from afar
Miserable, but I know what to do

Copyright 007

by Sean Kimmel

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Pals

Do you know the meaning of the word “pals”?
Not the actual definition,
but what being a true friend really is.

It means aiding each other through thick and thin,
even if you may not agree with their actions.
But you must give support on all issues.
And when it tumbles down,
you are there to help pick up pieces.
Occasionally argue over stupid things.
Get complete wasted on a whim.
Do the “this stays here” type of adventures.
But it’s all part of the unspoken bond.

A pal is there to listen to your problems
And give you their messed up advice
that ultimately helps out in no way at all.
There are few people that know you as well as close buddies.
Over the course of time there seems to be a revolving door
of those people we consider our best friends.
But the criterion remains the same.
They do for you as you do for them.

This is what it truly means to be called pals.

Copyright 2007

by Sean Kimmel

 

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Changes for the Same

Various emotions left untapped

Hanging off the tip of the tongue

Waiting to fly out into the open

Not knowing how to approach the questions

To express the way my heart beats

Though instinct says yours is not the same

Actions taken as either coincidence or a meaning

The events can be misconstrued

Waiting is painfully numb

Hoping leads to insanity

The day shall arise and a realization takes over

Hearts beat simultaneously forever

Nothing better, nothing more, nothing changed

Copyright 2007

by Sean Kimmel

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